Day 7: The thing(s) you're most afraid of.
I struggled with what to write about for this topic - I wanted to write about being afraid of something bad happening to my kids, but I assume that's every mom's primary fear. So I'm going to tell you about my extremely irrational fear of heights.
I am so afraid of heights, I can't even stand myself. I get so annoyed with myself when I'm in a car (a car, for crying out loud! INSIDE A CAR!) and we're going up (or down) a mountain, and my heart starts pounding and my palms start sweating as I realize there is a cliff on my side of the road. Or the other side of the road. Or anywhere that I can see. I cringe when my husband says "Look at that... fill-in-the-blank" - I can't even enjoy the scenery. And I wish so much that I could. I wish so much that I was like him, and our son, and our daughter, and that I could just gaze out at the gorgeous mountains and cliffs and places where your car can end up 600 feet below if you aren't watching where you are going... oh sorry, I got distracted by all that... space. LOL Seriously, though, I wish I could enjoy it. Their eyes light up when they talk about the possibility of jumping out of an airplane, bungee jumping, or taking a ride in a hot air balloon. You could not pay me to do any of those things. If you paid me a million dollars, I might offer someone 1/4 of it to PUSH ME OUT, but I simply could not do it myself. And I'd probably have a heart attack if someone pushed me, so no amount of money would be worth it.
I guess in the grand scheme of things, it's not so bad. When I'm forced to be in a situation where I have to deal with heights, I just try to remember how irrational it is and not let the panic take over. Deep breaths, positive thoughts, all that. It does work enough to get me through it, but I wish I could find a way to not have to suffer through that irrational fear to begin with. What are you afraid of and how do you cope with it?
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OK friends I'm about to get on a plane this morning to head back to Massachusetts for a week-long visit and bring my daughter back to Cali with me! :) My first plane trip alone, I'm a little nervous but also excited. I have plenty of reading material and a couple of movies loaded on my Nook HD, so I shouldn't be bored. I'll be checking in from my mom's and I have all my blog posts pre-scheduled, so hopefully you won't even notice I'm gone! :)
I did have to squeeze in one more project yesterday between packing and stuff, this one is special to me, it's for the:
HDH Macabre Monday: Stephen King Knightmare
My friend Megan sent me this adorable 4x4 art journal a few weeks ago and I was itching to get started in it, these were my first pages. I used paints and mists for the backgrounds, the image on the left is a free coloring page I found online (printed twice, second image I fussy-cut and layered the tower and clouds over the painted/misted original), and the clipart on the right was also found online. I added Stickles to the sun, tower, rocks, and clouds. Sentiments were done with my Dymo Caption Maker.
Peace.
I struggled with what to write about for this topic - I wanted to write about being afraid of something bad happening to my kids, but I assume that's every mom's primary fear. So I'm going to tell you about my extremely irrational fear of heights.
I am so afraid of heights, I can't even stand myself. I get so annoyed with myself when I'm in a car (a car, for crying out loud! INSIDE A CAR!) and we're going up (or down) a mountain, and my heart starts pounding and my palms start sweating as I realize there is a cliff on my side of the road. Or the other side of the road. Or anywhere that I can see. I cringe when my husband says "Look at that... fill-in-the-blank" - I can't even enjoy the scenery. And I wish so much that I could. I wish so much that I was like him, and our son, and our daughter, and that I could just gaze out at the gorgeous mountains and cliffs and places where your car can end up 600 feet below if you aren't watching where you are going... oh sorry, I got distracted by all that... space. LOL Seriously, though, I wish I could enjoy it. Their eyes light up when they talk about the possibility of jumping out of an airplane, bungee jumping, or taking a ride in a hot air balloon. You could not pay me to do any of those things. If you paid me a million dollars, I might offer someone 1/4 of it to PUSH ME OUT, but I simply could not do it myself. And I'd probably have a heart attack if someone pushed me, so no amount of money would be worth it.
I guess in the grand scheme of things, it's not so bad. When I'm forced to be in a situation where I have to deal with heights, I just try to remember how irrational it is and not let the panic take over. Deep breaths, positive thoughts, all that. It does work enough to get me through it, but I wish I could find a way to not have to suffer through that irrational fear to begin with. What are you afraid of and how do you cope with it?
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OK friends I'm about to get on a plane this morning to head back to Massachusetts for a week-long visit and bring my daughter back to Cali with me! :) My first plane trip alone, I'm a little nervous but also excited. I have plenty of reading material and a couple of movies loaded on my Nook HD, so I shouldn't be bored. I'll be checking in from my mom's and I have all my blog posts pre-scheduled, so hopefully you won't even notice I'm gone! :)
I did have to squeeze in one more project yesterday between packing and stuff, this one is special to me, it's for the:
HDH Macabre Monday: Stephen King Knightmare
My friend Megan sent me this adorable 4x4 art journal a few weeks ago and I was itching to get started in it, these were my first pages. I used paints and mists for the backgrounds, the image on the left is a free coloring page I found online (printed twice, second image I fussy-cut and layered the tower and clouds over the painted/misted original), and the clipart on the right was also found online. I added Stickles to the sun, tower, rocks, and clouds. Sentiments were done with my Dymo Caption Maker.
Peace.
You are so funny! Not that it's funny that you're afraid of heights, but the way that you wrote about it was funny.
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a wonderful trip back east, and that all will be right in the world once Cass is home with you.
Fabulous art journal pages! I was hoping you'd get a chance to play with us at HDH this week!
Hugs!
Ohh Sweetie, you're in my thoughts. I had no idea that you feared heights or flying, for that matter, but I'm sure you're keeping your eye on the "prize". Enjoy your visit (if not your journey) and we look forwad to the 2 of you coming back safe and sound. I KNEW you wouldn't let this challenge go by. Fabulous pages and great choice of King material. thanks for joining us in the dungeon this week. xxD
ReplyDeleteOne of my to favorite books, love that you used the first line. GL w/ the plane!
ReplyDeleteOh, these are way cool! Love both pages--really great designs! :^)
ReplyDeleteHope you trip is fabulous!
And I used to have the same irrational fear that you do about heights. Seems to be pretty much gone now, though--so there is hope for you, lol! :^)
Hugs, Penny
Great Journal pages and cool choice of movie. Thanks for sharing with us at haunted Design House :)
ReplyDeleteIt's not really that irrational better than being afraid of butterflies (now that is irrational). Hope everything went well picking your daughter up and the flight wasn't too stressful. Fab work on your project but it always is. Thanks for sharing with us at Haunted Design House x
ReplyDeletevery cool Jenn. great take on the Tower. love it. thanks for joining us at hdh
ReplyDeleteVery cool project :-) Sorry to hear about your 'fear'... I take it you won't be getting a window seat ??!!! No - seriously though... I hope you have a fabulous trip and enjoy seeing your Rellies :-D
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Sheesh !!! Forgot to say... Thank you for playing along at HAUNTED DESIGN HOUSE this week :-) xx
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